LG

We wove the clouds together with our silly kind minds.
And it seems I never entirely noticed, but without you,
I feel as if I've gone blind.
This is no plea, or begging prose,
Simply a way for me to unravel my thoughts of our friendships' ghost.
I'm sure you still ask about me
subconsciously, you ask your loved ones, I'm sure.
Pondering a plight you doubted I could endure.
You dropped me off the edge of your cold yet giving earth,
watched me spiraling downward into a hell I too thought would break my heart
beyond repair.
Now I look back on our old friendly photos.
Taking in the cold steam of heartlessness...
of forgetting...
Taking in the black smoke of betrayal...
and letting all this vapor filter through my mind.
I wish I could take back anything I did wrong.
But I wish I wouldn't have said anything at all
I want you to still remember me in the dark small of your thoughts.
I want to be still thought of as your first best friend.
I want to be loved in the back of your mind...
But I no longer wish to still be part of your life.
6/14/08